Still jobless

Its killing me.

There is so much I want to do but I can't do it. I stay up all night and sleep all day

I wish I could sleep till things got better but I know I have to make it better for myself but it won't get better till I find a job, Its pathetic. All I can do is wish

shoot

Its cold and I'm in shorts and I haven't slept

good morning

let this brighten your day

I'm still stuck

I really need a full time job to get things going.

Monday, I'm going to setup everything for PCC. I'm going to major in Computer Science
I'm looking forward to really learning something and being challenged

Being alone in this house with nothing to do and very few friends and no money is pulling me down.
Someone throw me a rope and pull me out of this hole

I realized

I'm scared,

I'm scared of growing old
I'm scared of being here today and not the next day
I'm scared of giving my heart in trust to another

one day the fear won't be there